Tuesday, 8 October 2013
I've decided to take a little break from here for a while. A month or so maybe.
Any of you that visit regularly know about my on off relationship with depression, and all that it entails.
This time of year leading up to Christmas is usually quite difficult for me. Not for any particular reason.
I've been struggling on and off for a little while.
I need to channel what energy I do have into the children, my husband, the home and family.
I hate it.
How it makes me feel.
How it can make me behave.
How it can cloud my mind and my judgement.
How it makes me insecure and scared.
How it makes me feel weak and pathetic when there are people close to me dealing with much more arresting and immediate difficulties.
I love visiting you and reading all about you and yours. I love that you take the time to visit mine.
But sometimes it would be nice to be able to drop in for a cup of tea. You know, for real.
Does that make any sense?
I'll be back when my Robin starts singing again.