Feeling Autumnal. Well aren't we all?
Today I gritted my teeth and returned to fat club. I don't know what's happened to me, apart from eating vast quantities of rubbish all summer long. I feel sluggish, unfit and - omg - my Mum said that I looked frumpy when I went out for dinner on Sunday. She was right. I did. And it's all down to not having the confidence/waistline to wear anything in my wardrobe. What has happened to me?
I spend a lot of time on my own, and although during the day I am busy with Olly and house and garden and dog etc etc etc, at night I sit and eat. Usually biscuits that my Mum has bought for the boys. I should be able to resist them. I just binge eat them. I don't even enjoy them. Is it emotional eating? Is it boredom? Do I need to start an absorbing hobby that I can pursue during the evening? Do I just need to give myself a good talking to and get on with shifting the flab?
Being on my own a lot isn't an excuse, I realise. What should I do? It's almost as if I am sabotaging my weight loss efforts, by throwing crap down my throat. The counsellor in me is quietly wondering what I am trying to push back down inside me with food....
Loneliness. It's a killer!!
Any suggestions? All gretfully received!! xx